Delightfully Waiting

I've been having a hard time lately. I think that it has finally set in that I am on my own. And while I love it. It's hard. After living almost 25 years at home with someone around almost all the time, it's rough to go from that to not really anyone around. Don't get me wrong, I like my "me" time. But, I guess I just wish that I had someone/something to fall back on. Someone who would always be there to just chat with me if I was bored or sad, etc.

"Take delight in the LORD

and He will give you

your heart's desires."

-Psalm 37:4 [NLT]

I am trying to cling to this verse right now. I've never wanted anything more in life than to be a wife and a mother. I've never had any career aspirations (that stuck) or goals in life other than that. I long to take care of my husband. I ache for children, whether they are biologically mine, or not. God-willing, I will bear children. But, that is not for me to decide. It is up to Him. And until the man that was created for me comes along, I will wait. I will wait on Him. I will pursue my relationship with Him. I will wait. 

I love the song that came out a few years ago with the movie, Fireproof. It's called "While I'm Waiting" by John Waller. Here are the lyrics. They are phenomenal.

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on you, Lord

And I am hopeful

I'm waiting on you, Lord

Though it is painful

But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident

Taking every step in obedience

While I'm waiting

I will serve you

While I'm waiting

I will worship

While I'm waiting

I will not faint

I'll be running the race

Even while I wait

I'm waiting

I'm waiting on you, Lord

And I am peaceful

I'm waiting on you, Lord

Though it's not easy

But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait

I just love those words. In face, I just bought the song. Can't believe I didn't even have it already. It's one of my favorites. Anyway, I love these words. And I love that I still have plenty of time. I just get discouraged. I always feel like no one is interested in me. No one wants to get to know me better. Now, whether that's true or not, God wants me to get to know Him better. He wants me to want a relationship with Him. And I do. I love that I've been growing more the past few months. I've seen a change. A desire. And I like it. I'm thankful. 

Lord, I'm waiting on You

and your perfect timing. But, please Lord,

don't make me wait too long.

I love You. You have blessed me more

than I could've ever imagined

in the past few months.

I am thankful

and I will wait on You. 

Love, Me