It's been a season of changes for me. And as scary as that has been...it was/is totally necessary. My mom got married in June of last year. Such a God-thing now that I look back on it, but me not looking at the bigger picture as He always does, I was totally against this guy. The wedding was a wonderful celebration. I was in good spirits, mainly because my mom was gone and I had the apartment to myself. Maybe a week or so later, I had a huge falling out with a friend of mine. We are--I'm not really sure how to put this--not on the same page? Disagreeing? Hardly speaking? One of those or a combination should work. I'm not really sure where we are at this point. That's a whole other post, that I'm sure I'll never write. My godson came to spend the week with me, which was incredible! Me and my two friends started planning what we call #friendcation2013. It was the most incredible trip of my life. I am so so thankful for these two women in my life. They are such a wonderful blessing! (I'll post about this trip veeeeeeeeeeeeery soon.)
Fast forward to several times over the next 6 months, where I had just HAD it with my mom and her husband. I was fed up and I finally prayed and basically just put it all out there. I prayed something like this, "God, I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like moving out is the answer to this whole thing, but I don't have what's necessary to move out. I need your help, your intervention. I need something, because if I don't move out soon, someone will die. I don't care if it's me, mom, or him--someone will die." Well folks, He answered my prayer and not long after that I met my now roommate! Y'all, I've always had a problem with God's timing, because it was never my own. But seriously, there's no way this would've worked unless God had ordained it in the timing He did. I'm just in complete awe of Him. Thankful and in awe. And I give Him all the glory, forever and ever, amen.
So, Allison is her name and I don't think I could've picked a better person to have in my life. We are both very laid back, nothing really ruffles our feathers at home. Both my roommates are older than me by 1 and 5 years. And I have to admit, I really like living with these older women. They are such a wonderful influence on me. They have made me want to pursue my relationship with God more than I have been. (I'm making them sound like they are old old. I just turned 25, guys, no worries! They are just such amazing women of God and I couldn't be more blessed to have them in my life. I've only known them for 3 months and they are becoming some of my best friends.
My post has turned into something I didn't mean for it to. That's what I get when I let my mind wander. Dang. Well, I'll go ahead and share my food for thought. Since I moved out, I have a couple of boxes here that I have yet to unpack, mainly because our lease is up in June and didn't want to settle just to have to pack up again. I'm also lazy...
I found two Bibles of my Dad's in a box. I was flipping through to see what words of wisdom my Dad had put in the margins and I came across this underlined passage:
"Love is patient, love is kind,
and is not jealous; love does not brag
and is not arrogant,
does not act unbecomingly;
it does not seek its own,
is not provoked,
does not take into account a wrong suffered,
does not rejoice in unrighteousness,
but rejoices with the truth."
--I Corinthians 14:4-6
He dated it too. Now this may not mean anything to most people, but I thought it was really neat. The date is 6/14/87. They found out they were pregnant with me almost a month later. I just thought that was the coolest thing. I love that God puts things in our path just when we need them the most. I miss my Dad everyday. But it's honestly getting easier. 7 years have passed for me and it does get easier. So, for those of you out there that have lost a loved one, parent, whatever--it gets easier to deal with living without them. It just takes time, and for me--prayer. Friends and family help a lot too.
Ok, I'm gonna go hang out with my "little bro" Graham. Hopefully I'll be posting again soon about my trip! Can't wait!
-katie
