Forever

So this weekend (9th-12th), I went to Children's Camp with the kids from my church. Some were annoying, some were great, and some were--well, there.    God was there the whole time. I felt Him around. I felt Him there, more than I have here in a while. The last night we worshipped together we sang the song "Forever" by Chris Tomlin. Those words have never hit me like this before.

    

"Forever God is faithful

Forever God is strong

Forever God is with us, Forever."

   

I could just sing that song over and over again. "His Love Endures Forever"

  

Why is God faithful? If God is faithful then why are we so mad when something horrible happens to us in our lives? Faithful means steadfast in affection, loyal, unswerving in allegiance. How are we supposed to trust Him again when something or someone is taken away from us? Faith. Why does He want us to trust Him so much? Because He wants us to tell Him everything, even if we are mad. Someone once told me if I'm mad at God, go out to a field just you and Him and just scream. Just yell at Him. Yell and tell Him that you are angry and that you hate the situation.

 

The theme at camp this week was Flip (Matthew 20:1-16). Flip your life upside down for Him. Chris Brooks was the speaker along with the band, The Chris Orr Band. Brooks pointed out to everyone there that you can't hide from God. He's always with us and He always has His eye on us.

 

"What is the price of two sparrows--one copper coin? But not a single sparrow can fall to the ground without your Father knowing it." --Matthew 10:29

 

That is oddly comforting. He is so aware of what is going on everywhere at the same time, even the sparrows are taken care of. He knows how many hairs are on our heads.

 

Anyway, I realized that I cannot hide the fact that I am mad at God for several things. But, does that fact keep me from having good days? I don't think so. God is still with me and I'm trying so hard to trust Him with my life. I fail so many times, but I try to pray everyday--at least once.

 

It's better for me to keep a prayer journal. It helps me to see my words and actually remember what I'm talking about.

 

Ok, so, I'm back from Camp. Woot! I'm trying to do the whole Photography thing now. I'll be posting some pictures to see what everyone thinks about some of them. Let me know!

 

Until next time...do I have another chapter to go in that book?

katie