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"There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose"
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I never remember that when in the game of Life, I'm going to stumble and fall flat on my face. I'm going to lose. I hate admitting that. In a perfect world, I would win all the time. I would've made the grades to graduate with honors in high school. I would've gotten into an amazing college, the first time. I would've graduated with honors. I would meet the perfect man for me. We would get married and start a family. Our children would be beautiful and they would never get hurt. They would know the Lord and thrive from His direction. Instead, I didn't try hard enough in high school to make it to an honorable graduation. I hated college (the first time). I loved college, the second time. I didn't try enough, again, to graduate honorably. I haven't met the perfect man that God has set apart for me. I haven't had beautiful children of my own. I lost my dad when I was 17 and I've let that affect me in different parts of my life, both negatively and positively.
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Now, don't get me wrong. I have definitely loved a lot of the past almost 8 years of my life. I had a lot of days of laughter. I had birthdays and Christmases and Fridays! I've had days of talking with friends about what matters in life. Heart to heart chats lift my spirits. I've kept amazing kids in 8 years. I just can't even express how much fun I've had in and out of high school and then in and out of college!
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I hope there is much more life for me to live. I hope that God blesses me immensely and grants me with the desires of my heart (Ps. 37:4). I can't wait to see the fun and love that my life has to come. I won't be scared of it anymore.
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May the Lord bless you and keep you.
-katie
