"does her best to smile at me to hide what's underneath"

Walls....

They are awful things. 

I have a brick wall up right now. I hide what I'm feeling on a daily basis so people won't see me for what I really am--sad, mad, angry, crushed. 

 

I love to listen. I believe it's a spiritual gift I've been blessed with. Listening is therapy for me--kind of. I'm a good listener. I listen and put my 2 cents in (with discretion). 

 

But the thing is--I'm not a good talker. I mean I can just chat up with the best of them, but when it comes to sharing and putting my heart out where people can see the real me...I'm not so good at that.

 

And how can I change this? Pray? Just toughen up and talk? Who knows.

Soon I will share my story with all of you out there in blog land. Hmm...I'm not looking forward to that day--but it will be soon.

 

Until another day...

katie

Happy Halloween-ing

Meredith and her boys!

Kate (mcdonald's fries), Cate (thing 1 & 2), and Parker (lady bug)

Margaret as Sarah Palin! haha! she was great!

The Stover's! :) love this family! Emma, Paul, Holly, and Sam

Janie and me! :)

like father like son!

and again!

me and my sam!

gettin' a kiss!!

another one! :)

a Guitar Hero and a Hog Vball player

yummy---except i felt sick after i ate it!

me and my nerdy sister!

 

 

 

this was sooo fun! :)

People in my life

ok as for decoration--i'm hoping that one of my friends will "cute it up"! :)

 

 

 

i wanted this post to who all of you who is most important to me in my life. so here are some pictures and blurbs about the ppl in them!

this beautiful woman beside me is my mom, Connie. she is my inspiration for life and who i live for. she has such a love for her Lord and Savior and shares her happiness with everyone she's around. i can't say enough amazing things about my mom. she is my life and best friend and i will never love anyone more.

My family means everything to me and there is no one on earth that i trust more. My cousins are like my brothers since i have no siblings. these are my cousins J, (new cousin-in-law) Caira, Jarrod, me, and Blake. 

my friends mean the world to me. i have no idea where i would be without them.

Sarah, Sadie, and Emily

and my kids(that i have pictures of):

me and Kaleb! Trinity! Cameron! Jackson me and Cate! me and Graham!

Charley and Anna!

i have some more...but i have to change computers though. i'll update later.

--katie

...and we're off!

so i'm starting this blog and i don't know much about it. so any advice would be great! 

this blog is dedicated to my life and just as it says...thoughts of a beggar. i'm a beggar of the Lord and i cannot deny it. He has done so many things in my life and for me and there's no denying that He has all the credit. 

i plan to credit God with my life on here. 

until next time,

katie